Verse 1
As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait
blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate
start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste
couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate
to a harder prescription drug called Valium like yea that's great
I go to just take one and I end up like having eight
now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate
maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
and you'd think that with all I have at stake
look at my daughters face, mommy somethin' is wrong with dad I think
he's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
and all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos and he just
fell asleep in his car eating Three Musketeers in the rear seat
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Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know
it feels like I've been down this road before
so lonely and cold
it's like something takes over me as soon as I go home and close the door
kinda feels like deja vu
I wanna get away from this place I do
but I can't and I won't say I try but I know that's a lie cause I don't
and why? I just don't know
Verse 2
Maybe just an ice cold brew what's a beer
that's the devil in my ear I've been sober a fucking year
and that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fucking hear
Marshall come on we'll watch the game it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers
and maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed for half the time
whose the mastermind behind that little line?
With that kinda rational, man I got half a mind to
have another half a glass of wine sounds asinine
yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol
ouch, look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm 'bout to fall
I missed the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball
shit musta knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all
wow, what the fuck happened last night? Where am I? Man fuck am I hung over and God damn I
got a headache, shit half a Vicodin why can't I?
All systems ready for take off please stand by
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Verse 3
So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then- ahhh
couple of weeks go by, it ain't even like I'm getting' high
now I need it just to not feel sick, yeah I'm getting by
wouldn't even be taking this shit if Deshaun didn't die, oh yeah there's an excuse you loose Proof so you use
there's new rules its cool if its helpin' you to get through
it's Twelve Noon ain't no harm in self inducin' a snooze
what else is new, fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes
now here I am three months later full blown relapse
just get high until the kids get home for school, Holmes relax
and since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps
just to be able to function throughout the day let's see
that's an Ambien each nap how many Valium? Three
and that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
o.k. so now ya see the reason how come he
has taken four years to put out an album, B
see me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath
'cause that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing?
It was bologna, was it the Methadone ya think?
or the Hydrocodone ya hide inside your pornos, your VCR tape cases
with your Ambien CR great places
to hide 'em ain't it so you can lie to Hailie?
I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby, good night Alaina
go in the room and shut the bedroom door
and wake up in an ambulance they said they found me on the bathroom floor
damn...
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